Friday, June 11, 2010
i'm so messed up in my thoughts
"hey baby show me show me your love, i will promise to show you show you all my love"- elanne kwong-[show you].
i don't dare to say that, because i know i'm once again failing to love a person wholeheartedly. i want to show all my love, but i can't because i have learnt to protect myself from getting hurt, but while i protect myself, i hurt the other half.
is it really that hard to be at love's equilibrium? i actually think so.
but i want to, really want to be the 'me' without protection, but seems like i've got this permeable membrane covering me, what you see is only half of the real me. the real me, kinda disappeared in the world i revolve in.
sometimes i don't know what the shit am i doing.
i seem to be still living in my memories of people that used to love me and looking over those that are currently loving me. people do like living in their memories aye?
all the good times bad times just pops up when you see something randomly and naturally associate that thing with that historic person.
just like today, i saw mr. tuffery at the cocklebay dairy, the first person i thought of texting was a historic person. but i didn't text in the end, because it seems stupid trying to bring back those memories when we are covering them up with dust now. so the only thing i can do is to smile while thinking of those happy memories and let it go the next moment, coming back to reality. continuing with the current life. but that excitement when i saw mr. tuff kinda hits back to me.
i begin to doubt myself sometimes.
should not feel doubts towards the love that you have right now but treasure it, not to take it for granted, but human's nature is always taking things for granted. and when u lose it, u just go like fuck this shit. why not before saying fuck this shit, love all you can before it's all too late?
maybe you were right, we may belong to different worlds.
but i don't think that will stop me from
spending all my time lovin' you
All my time lovin' you
every minutes runnin' away
from when i wake up
to when i lay down
all i got is you baby on my brain
spending all my time lovin' you
all my time lovin' you
25 hours in my day
in believing that love combines two different worlds together and u get happiness from it, hoping that you won't let go before i do.
i do like everything that u did for me, it was everything that i was thinking of before i met you.but i didn't feel as crazy as i thought i would in my imagination, maybe because of my permeable membrane.
"hey baby show me show me your love, i will promise to show you show you all my love"- elanne kwong-[show you].
i don't dare to say that, because i know i'm once again failing to love a person wholeheartedly. i want to show all my love, but i can't because i have learnt to protect myself from getting hurt, but while i protect myself, i hurt the other half.
is it really that hard to be at love's equilibrium? i actually think so.
but i want to, really want to be the 'me' without protection, but seems like i've got this permeable membrane covering me, what you see is only half of the real me. the real me, kinda disappeared in the world i revolve in.
sometimes i don't know what the shit am i doing.
i seem to be still living in my memories of people that used to love me and looking over those that are currently loving me. people do like living in their memories aye?
all the good times bad times just pops up when you see something randomly and naturally associate that thing with that historic person.
just like today, i saw mr. tuffery at the cocklebay dairy, the first person i thought of texting was a historic person. but i didn't text in the end, because it seems stupid trying to bring back those memories when we are covering them up with dust now. so the only thing i can do is to smile while thinking of those happy memories and let it go the next moment, coming back to reality. continuing with the current life. but that excitement when i saw mr. tuff kinda hits back to me.
i begin to doubt myself sometimes.
should not feel doubts towards the love that you have right now but treasure it, not to take it for granted, but human's nature is always taking things for granted. and when u lose it, u just go like fuck this shit. why not before saying fuck this shit, love all you can before it's all too late?
maybe you were right, we may belong to different worlds.
but i don't think that will stop me from
spending all my time lovin' you
All my time lovin' you
every minutes runnin' away
from when i wake up
to when i lay down
all i got is you baby on my brain
spending all my time lovin' you
all my time lovin' you
25 hours in my day
in believing that love combines two different worlds together and u get happiness from it, hoping that you won't let go before i do.
i do like everything that u did for me, it was everything that i was thinking of before i met you.but i didn't feel as crazy as i thought i would in my imagination, maybe because of my permeable membrane.
what we could have been, 9:44 PM.
